It has been way to long.....

So it has been a while since I last posted. So let me just jump back into to it. I am trying to get back into church. It has not been easy at all. The more I try to get back into church the more I question God. Is this normal? I am a Christian I believe in God but I am questioning if he is really there for me. If he is why is he putting me through all of this stuff. I left the church I grew up in and I am trying out different churches I found a couple I like. But it doesn't feel right to be in church when I am questioning God. So is this normal? I have trusted God for a long time and have got nothing in return but disapointment. Should I still trust him still am I wrong to question him? Is it wrong to ask why? I know I ramble and I have no clue if this post makes any since.But I really needed to get all of this out.